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I hate feeling insecure.
I hate feeling paranoid.
I hate how a simple word has the power to make me feel paranoid.
I feel like crying my eyes out for something that I don't even know if it's real. But I won't.
I made a promise to myself when I was a lot younger. I already broke it. I'm not about to do it again.
I want to believe in you when you say the sixth sense doesn't exist.
Because if it doesn't exist then I don't have to worry about what it is telling me right now.
Only 36 hours until I have my confirmation.
But I don't think I can handle it...