The First Day

Today didn't seem like a first day. It seemed more like a trial or something.
The actual first day will be tomorrow (waking up early, classes the whole day).
So, today I woke up at 10... Killed some time until 11h20 am and then left to take the bus... Luckily I left that early because apparently there were no buses until 12 pm and I had to take the ferry before that, so I had to walk!
I only had one class.
Electromagnetism and Optics - So, the teacher didn't seem that bad. BUT he wrote the whole syllabus on the board. HELLO? That thing is online!!! Also, I failed the class but I studied for the 2 exams last year - I know the syllabus really well and so I almost fell asleep ._.

Tomorrow is another first day

My 15th year of school begins tomorrow.
I'm soooo NOT excited!
Having to wake up early and spend my days in a place where everyone hates me and no one talks to me... especially because the only person who talks to me isn't there anymore lol
At least tomorrow will be a really short first day because I only have one class - the class some people don't have and all the others don't go to lol.
Tuesday will be worse...

This past week has been hell... but I have one funny story

Once again, I'll try not to get into much detail because (as this story proves!) the world is really small and the Internet is even smaller.

I'll start by saying that back when I started High School, there was this guy who had a class with me. He was REALLY cute and I found myself staring at him during the classes... but it was never more than that - we never even talked and he had a girlfriend.
I remember doing some online stalking and I found him and his girlfriend on a social network. I even dreamt about him that night.
Anyway, I stopped caring, next year he wasn't in my class anymore and I didn't really think about him again.

Wednesday's night I was doing some online stalking and I came across a profile of a certain person on the social newtork refered before. He had a comment of this guy and I decided to stalk his profile. I decided to look at that guy's pictures to see if he had pictures of this certain person... but what I saw was the exact same pictures I saw when I online stalked that cute guy who had a class with me. Yeah, he was him.

The thing here is: that guy is one of the closest friends of my ex-boyfriend! I had been on his Facebook before but I didn't bother to see all his pictures... so I didn't notice who he was (and he also doesn't have a High School listed).

This kind of moments make me think if there's something higher than us that has our whole lifes already planned. I mean, I drooled a lot over that guy in High School but I never really thought that one of his closest friends would be my first boyfriend...

Yep, I'm crying my eyes out.

Nothing ever goes right with me.
I try my hardest to be a good person - a good friend, a good daughter, a good girlfriend (a role I don't have anymore).
I just wish, for once, things would go my way.
This isn't definitely my month. Or my year.

But even though right now I'm crying, I'm not giving up. I don't give up on things I KNOW have potential.

Right now the only thing I have to look forward too is going running next Monday (and hoping someone doesn't break their promise of going with me!)

Tomorrow is a day with potential

I believe every day has lots of potential. When we get out of our beds in the morning, we never know if the day we're going to face will be the best day of our lifes (or the worst). The thing is, we never know what's going to happen!
But about tomorrow, I know. I know that, by this time tomorrow, I will either be one of the happiest people alive or I will be crying my eyes out. Yes, that's a possibility for every day. But for tomorrow I'm sure.

My last day as a 19 year old

So, tomorrow's my 20th birthday!!

I don't feel like a 20 year old girl. I don't even feel like a 19 year old girl!!

I feel like I have so much to live and learn yet...

It sucks.

You plan to meet with someone. You plan your outfit in detail. You get excited because you really really want to see that person. And then that person cancels the plan.

I really like to write in English. I think it's a pretty language and that everything sounds better written in English. But the English language doesn't have the word that describes how I feel right now:

SAUDADES!!!

Even if I was with him 19 hours ago. Even if I will see him again in 25 hours.